Kryon - Channeling August 2008
Your own darkness
Greetings dear friends, I am KRYON of the magnetic service.
Welcome in the duality, or should I rather say: Welcome in a fake world of duality - in that world where you are still acting with one leg. It is your world which you now want to create new, and this is not that easy, right? You are still being tangled in old loops and patterns that are passing through your magnetic field from what you really are. You are twisting on the confused paths of the many other lives where duality still is flourishing. I would like to examine this closer for you. It has been talked about a lot, but now you are in an especially deep cleansing process and not all that you heard or knew has reached you. You are fighting at the moment through your own chaos, which rarely lets you listen up, but which keeps you trapped as in a maze. This chaos of your own emotions that let you say: "I am fed up; old fears are coming up again and again. I thought I had looked at many things, realized and dissolved them. Over and over those old things come up again. I would just like to live without those old feelings." Or you think: "I really don't understand, in the evening I close my eyes to go to sleep and then all those uncomfortable situations of my life pop up. It seems like a movie being played all over. And then I feel ashamed, helpless and embarrassed by all that's going on. All of a sudden I am wide awake and cannot go back to sleep". Or you experience the following: Deep darkness is lying on your shoulders. You feel yourself bent down and suppressed, although you have been home all day, without any weakening experiences. But you feel, as if a thousand tons are burdening you. An awareness of old experiences appears partially in your consciousness. You do not see any connections, but you know what you are experiencing right now is dipping into other lives. With one leg you are elsewhere, but you are not really able to perceive this. What is going on? Sometimes you also feel shadows at your side. Who are these shadows? What are they doing here? You did not invite them. Maybe you say: "I think I should slowly let go of the duality. What are those dark figures doing on the rim of my field? Go away, I don't want you anymore. You no longer have anything to do with me!" Maybe you could have complained in this manner quite angrily and desperately.
You are at the moment in heavy processes of transformations. We have spoken already about the transformations of the heart. Here it is about other symptoms of processes of your transformation. For your better understanding, we would like to mention shortly again what you actually already know. You've read it or talked to others about it. Actually you know what this is all about but you cannot fit this in properly. Everything that you experience seems to be exceptional to you. Those strong headaches, the sleeplessness and lack of orientations make you insecure. The mood changes of being deathly sad and the next second filled with joy of life puts you into strong confusions. Sometimes it is almost impossible to do your daily work. Again, sometimes it is this heaviness and tiredness of life which comes in phases. "What is going on?" You think to yourself, "Am I getting into depressions? It almost feels like this. Maybe I should go for a therapeutic treatment?" Even the following thought could sneak in: "Maybe I am simply ill and stressed with my everyday life; this has nothing to do with the ascension of the Earth. Maybe it is not true that we will ascend. Maybe somebody just invented this. Probably I followed a fraud. Certainly everybody around me is laughing and considers me to be a dreamer. Maybe I am crazy and will be put in a clinic." Yes, this would be an extreme description of your possible thoughts.
I already have said this in many channelings, but I would like to put this again gently into your heart: You are a multi-dimensional light being, who moved out to learn in duality and then return with all the wisdom from all the experiences and, at some point, return back home with everything. Nothing which you experience here is unwanted. At this time, some of you are here with a special mission. You cannot always remember what it is. But be assured, if you are not yet on the path to this mission, it will soon appear to you. Many of you are here in this incarnation to just bring your own light of the higher self and even their higher parts that want to come through you to light up the Earth and the path of other people. In order for the light to be able to radiate more and more through you, the old patterns of other lives - and also this life, which are stored in your DNA and your emotional body - have to be dissolved. At the same time the structure of your electromagnetic field, which is what you actually are, is being adjusted as it had been planned in you divine blue print. This is an extensive process. The best is that you use these high energies for clearing, which at the moment is very evident for the awakened ones. And all that you feel at the moment is the activity of this Golden Wave. It brings everything to the surface that would like to leave you so that your light is able to radiate more. It is probably difficult to deal with this in the everyday life. In old times, initiates gave their students who awakened a certain time in temples for clarification. You are on the difficult path to deal with this in everyday life.
We could mention that initiations and the passing through certain doorways on this path of total awakening have not all become unnecessary. These still exist, but the sensational news is that we are standing very close to you and, as in school, whisper something into your ear or pass you a cheat slip which helps you in your steps. We are standing at the next door with you, offer you our hand and give you a slight push; some of you need a real kick to pass through. The outer circumstances are easier to get through if you are aware of the divine energies and which you use like a surfboard. Lay or stand in this Golden Wave and let yourself move smoothly. Do not hold on to old paradigms or old visions of how everything should be. You have been brought up in a way that everything has to be in certain ways. This had been taught to you - and not only in this life. It came from other people and experiences, right? Where does this idea come from - that everything has to be precisely tidy? Who told you that people have to be diligent, otherwise they don't amount to anything? Who taught you to be quiet and silent, not to utter a sound and that everything that the boss or the father says is to be believed because, of course, they would have better knowledge and wiser decisions? Who told you that one has to save money so that there is something left if distress comes up? I would not like to say anything against your saving account, but did you ever think that money could come to you in other ways? You never wanted to step out and do things differently? You do not need to sell your nice car, and your wonderful apartment is also in order. Don't be ashamed of it. Those who want to develop spiritually do not need to live poor or as an ascetic. We only suggest that you throw your planning upside down and then put it into a new order. Put all your imprints to the side and live your life with your own measurements. They should be a scepter for your freedom. Be free and live your own imaginations. Lay all old things aside and put up new lines that like to guide your life. If you like, connect to the ascended Master and human friend, St. Germain. It is his favorite task to lead people into the path of freedom. He belongs to those (Jesus was also one of them) who straightened out energetically the path for people through his own process. Many of the ascended Masters have done this.
But we're now returning back to your own actual state of being. Some of you already enjoy an easier life. Also among the awakened ones are pioneers among the pioneers. If you are still in heavy processes for those who awakened with you or later, who walk in your path that you had worked out. And you step in the energy tracks others have already set for you. They are those, who stood up right after the Harmonic Convergence or even earlier and also got on their path to become a free human being. They have put aside most of their old slag and invented their next plans for themselves, their environment and the Earth. These are mostly people who are a little older in earthly years and like to take care of the younger awakened one who are full of energy but still stumble and really don't know what to do next. These already clearer ones offer their hand to those who need help; they support the needy ones. They also help the new children to get around. Keep looking for such a being, if you would like to get help from outside. They are those people who travel around and give lectures or tirelessly work in their practitioner's offices to help others to awaken. For support, you can also turn to me or other spirit helpers. Look, right now I also present to you the divine energy carpet so that it will be easier to get through those strokes of clarifications. Maybe you are also one of those pioneers of pioneers. You for sure know that. Research what you can do to serve mankind and the Earth.
Now let me come to the dark appearances, those who maybe hassle you and of whom you are aware are around you. It is correct that there are still energies - beings or forms of beings - which are not yet in the light. At some time this game will be totally over. The game field of the duality will dissolve. Everything which flows out of the Source will return to the path back home and be integrated into lighter levels. It is important to understand that you don't get into judgment in relation to other people; that everyone of you - and also you - dealt with the dark side of power. There are no exceptions for anyone. You are only one step further than the others. Don't damn the war veterans and their leaders, also, not their leaders, the politicians and those who guide them, those who came from far away. Realize everything is a game of duality. If a person dies, this of course is very sad for the relatives. But the person only changed the dimension and soon enough he enjoys spiritual health; he is eternal. With this, we do not want to say that you should not develop compassion for war fields and dying people. But do not be sad and discouraged. You are multi-dimensional - as your friends and your enemies are. Everybody is. Send your light to all areas that are involved at this time with wars that deal with natural disasters, or that live in places where life conditions are bad. Your light will find its way. Just let it flow. It always works.
The dark entities, which you may become aware of at the perimeter of your field, have possibly something to clear with you. They still might have old connections which could have come from the ancient time of the star wars. What is there to do? Consciously dissolve the connection and say: "No, I no longer want to have anything to do with you. I therefore disconnect our old bondage." Then the connection is dissolved. In very hard cases ask Archangel Michael for help. But probably you are already in the energies of the Archangels and work with the sword of power. Be assured that the more you stand in your light the stronger is the connection with your higher self, and no enemy can come through this light. Nobody can do this. You should draw your attention only to yourself and your light. If you do this everything automatically steps back. Your light is blinding them and is very uncomfortable to them. And most important: Do not give them any attention. Be with yourself; stand in your light. You probably know this from daily life: The less attention you give to a bad situation or a complaining person the more you become uninteresting to them.
Now this might make you feel a little odd, if I tell you: Most of encounters which you experience are meetings with your own parts. Crazy isn't it? It's your own self! You experience your own dark parts, which are now standing next to you and make themselves noticeable. What are you doing now? No, don't run away or hide or even chase them away. Look at them. What do they want to tell you? Why are they here? They would like to integrate. They want to unify with you. You want to be complete, right? Look at them. With this you probably will bring up some uneasy feelings which are still stored in you. Shame, fear, unworthiness and feelings of power, also sexual feelings of all different kinds come up. In the last thousand years many times sexuality was used to manipulate people. This is still the case today. Think about and look closely at your own sexual attitude. Then release all the old ones, which you have stored - many times uncomfortable experiences and attitudes. To do this is an important step because it changes your own conception of power. The divine energy which is stored in every person (and is also activated in the sexual act) played a great role, as well as manipulation, also within high civilizations which then sank into the duality. Don't be afraid, just be aware of it. People have imprints with this as victims and as perpetrator. Also be aware that many of these things are stored in the mass consciousness. You are a pioneer and they usually have the assignment to courageously walk ahead. If you clear your own field of old power imprints, then it will be easier for your followers. Through this the mass consciousness experiences a progressive change. Now that you look around on Earth you may think that this might be a fairly heavy task. I would like to share: All old things have to come up and have to dissolve, have to burn in order to resurrect out of the ashes and become new like the phoenix bird.
I wish you all the best by integrating your dark shadow parts. It will continue to happen; it is not a onetime thing. It is a process. There are many small dark nights of the soul, whereas previously the experiences took longer phases. Some of the initiates lived a long time in that period. Anyhow some of them conquered this path through the depths of the underworld in a few days, a very few within some hours. We like to stand at your side so that in the short phases of diving in you can integrate your shadow-sides. I see you like living with yourself in a cocoon dealing with yourself so that you can burst out as a beautiful butterfly and flutter into your life hungry for knowledge and joyfully with life, ready to consider life from a different perspective. You are honored and loved for your service to stay here on Earth.
I am in deep love and connectedness.
KRYON
Received by Barbara Bessen in August 2008
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